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[29 Jul 2004|03:44pm]
new journal.

soo comment on their to be added.
you have to add me first of course.


[29 Jul 2004|12:21pm]

i think its about time..

i deleted almost all of my friends list.
so if you want to be added back..
you have to add me first.

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[08 Jul 2004|09:59pm]
mk. well let me start with monday. i woke up that morning and went to my lindseys house &we went to friendly and walked around for a while. then we went home and mr. steven came over for like two hours. we watched a movie i jsut dont remember what it was lol. then steven went home. and me and lindsey..well idk what we did but yeah lol. then the next day we woke up and christian and steven came over and yeah me and christian fought for like 239058325 hours and it was funny. because HE told me to grow up. grr hes the one that needs to grow up. then he went home and steven stayed. blah blah blah. steven went home. then we went in the kitchen and brandon scared the cat and it knocked down a plant so we had to clean that up and then the "cat" ran into the door. COUGH COUGH lol. well thennn the next day i came home to my dads new apartment and i sat around and listened to music. then i went to the pool and tried to tan (didn't work) and then went home and hung around then went back to the pool to go night swimming. heh. then i went homee and went to bed eventually and today i went to the pool again and read some "jacob have i loved" and tanned. then my dad took me to see my mommy at work, and then i went home and watered my mommas plants for her. THEN I WENT AND CAUGHT SOME TADPOLES. and they are sitting right next to me, im gonna watch them grow..! yeah so i went out to eat and then came home.

oh yea...i have a big red scrape thing on my nose because i hit my face on the pool. im such a dumbass. and its embarrasing and UGH..

AND my mom is leaving tomorrow until friday. mhm oh yea =)

damn that was a long ass entry. please comment because otherwise all that writing would be a waste.
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[07 Jul 2004|02:54pm]
i think tonight im going to my dads new apartment..so i dont think his phone/internet is gonna be hooked up, so yeah..call my cell 5082042
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[04 Jul 2004|11:55pm]
me and lindsey think..

LOGAN PRINCE deserves to burn in hell.

yeah thats right. stupid fucker
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[04 Jul 2004|05:18am]
mk im not gonna let stuff get to me anymore im gonna be happy.

you're such a sucker for a sweet talker ♥♥Collapse )
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[04 Jul 2004|01:17am]
i hate you

yea..Collapse )
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[03 Jul 2004|03:56pm]
i need to raise 249 dollars by the 18th or 19th.

anyone have any ideas? i'm open to anything.

[02 Jul 2004|02:04pm]
mm im gonna be a rich kid. =)

i might have a babysitting job like all day tomorrow and all night.
and then another on sunday from 5:30-10:30.

mhm, i can taste the richness already.

hey, call me if you wanna hang out because im free this whole week.
8569407 // 5082042
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[01 Jul 2004|02:58pm]
i love my friends!
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[30 Jun 2004|03:59pm]
its really great to finally have a person to call my BEST FRIEND and mean it.

lindsey i've really missed you. im sorry i haven't been there for you as a best friend recently. but im glad to have to back! you are a person i can call my best friend and you can call me yours and you know that i will always be there for you and i kknow that you will be there for me. and i also know that the fact that you have steven will never screw up our friendship because unlike someone you choose friends over boys.

i love you alot and im so glad we are best friends again!
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[29 Jun 2004|10:25pm]
01. Who are you, what's our relationship?:
02. How and where did we meet?:
03. What's my middle name?:
04. How long have you known me?:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression?:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Color eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings?:
12. Have you ever been mean to me?:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do?:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think i'm good looking?:
18. How would you describe me to someone?:
19. Would you ever hug me?:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me?:
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do?:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight?:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

fill this out pwease. i'll be a happy girl
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[28 Jun 2004|11:31am]
okay. i haven't updated since Friday. saturday i woke up around 11 and me and my mom got ready and then we went to Yoga. then we went out to lunch. then that night i went to Friendly with steph and anya. after that anyas parents took us back to their neighborhood and we walked around for a while with jess. then around 11 i got home and i read for a while and then watched tv and then went to sleep. sunday i got up early and went to old navy and home depot with my mom. i got new sandals and a cute little tube top thing. and then after that i went home and talked to suraya on the phone and then cleaned. and then i came over to surayas. and we went to ricks house to hang out with him and ben and that was fun. we got picked up at like 10:15 and then we came home and didnt know what to do. but we wanted wendys so we talked to kevin and his friend and they brought us wendys and hung out for a while. they left at like 1:30 and then we went to bed. and now we are trying to figure out what to do today, i think im goin to see the notebook. idk though. but yea if ya'll wanna talk to me you can call my cell! 5082042. :) suraya says hey even though shes cleaning her room. haha

comment guysss :)
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[25 Jun 2004|10:17pm]
last night i went to megans house.
and i thought me and erin were gonna
talk about stuff but i mean i just
had that feeling that everything was
alright and i guess it was mutual.
and i loved being with her again.
we spent 20 minutes trying to get
a good picture of us. it was great.
today i did nothing all day after
i left megans. but tonight i went
to the ice house with my cool friends
from southwest. they are some cool kids.
haha. well tomorrow i think im goin
to see the notebook with some people.

i cant wait till funday sunday lalala shishkebob
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[24 Jun 2004|02:22pm]
me and erin are meant to make up. heh
because i found this keychain thing
that has our picture from Apollos
Chariot on it. i haven't seen that
thing in like a year. but i just randomly
saw it on my chair. haha :)

it's always you in my big dreams.♥♥♥Collapse )

i'm happy today.
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[24 Jun 2004|01:19am]
i love boys sometimes.

haha and guess what? i met a new boy tonight and hes cool

summer sunset x0 (1:21:30 AM): katy you seriously kick ass, i mean it..im so glad i found you :-D hehe your the best in the world i love you katyyyyyyy!!!

boys are so cool sometimes.
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[23 Jun 2004|04:04pm]
so many things are going on right now.

i really dont know if i can do this anymore..
nothings getting better like its supposed to.
what am i supposed to do? just go on without
being happy? is this friendship with erin
not meant to be? because obviously something
is keeping us from working everything out.

i want so bad to be happy.
i dont deserve this. im better than this..i think

someone help me? please. i need to be happy.

my god damn teeth hurt so bad it just adds to
all my emotional pain.

i really need help. anyone wanna help??
it will be greatly appreciated

i need to sleep
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[22 Jun 2004|04:21pm]
hey. its been a little while since i've updated.
but me and erin are going to talk thursday night
in person, and i'm happy. she misses me, her journal
says it =).
haha but yea right now i'm at courtneys.
last night we went to see garfield and then
after that my mommy picked us up and took us to
marios and we ate and then we walked to my house from
there. then we sat around and talked on the computer
like always and text messaged people on our phones.
haha we are losers. then we didnt sleep at all until
6 and woke up at 9 and came over here. and we have
been up since then and really i'm not tired. haha is
that not cool.

today i found out that me and courtney might be going
to new york on saturday!!!!!!! i will get to fly in
an airplaneee mhm isnt that cool. well we arent really
sure we can go though until we find a flight but hey
that would be super dooper fun!

i think that boys are stupid and they all need to die
except for this little logan kid and dawson. because
those are the coolest boys i know. =) oh yea and that
little bryan kid i met last night because he has a
cute voice.

welll i dont have anything else to write about and i
have to go put some make up on because im lookin scary.

comment please, i'll be happy

excuse me i was wrong about erin. we aren't hanging out.
things aren't getting better. :-/ hmph oh well..
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[21 Jun 2004|03:51am]
[ mood | trying to be happy ]

hey, you.

i miss ya. alot.

i miss the long nights sitting in my room talkin.
i miss staying up all night.
i miss playing sims with you.
i miss sneaking out and getting caught and never getting in trouble.
i miss making signs to hang up in my room.
i miss playing in your pool till the sun goes down.
i miss getting freaked out of "ghosts" in your pool.
i miss telling you all my problems.
i miss hanging out all the time.
i miss being known as your best friend.
i miss playing life.
i miss gossiping.
i miss catching up on whats going on.
i miss getting caught doing stuff we shouldnt too.
i miss fighting about stupid stuff and making up 3 minutes later.
i miss busch gardens.
i miss having you all to myself.
i miss having a week to be with you and only you.
i miss last summer. logan, brandon, and jonathan.
i miss the sneaking out at 2:30 to play spin the bottle with the boys.
i miss me and logan trying to hook you and jonathan up.
i miss our friendship. period.

overall, i just miss you. and its killing me to see that you dont miss me back.. i can't believe we are letting a friendship die because of a guy. didn't we always promise that it would never happen? i guess we broke a promise. i love you alot and idk what i would ever do without you and i know we have been through alot but see we always pull through hopefully we can pull through this. i think what we need is 3 days together. 3 quality days. with no boyfriend. barely any computer. just me and you, one on one. time to talk..time to catch up..and time to remember all the good times. then the rest of the time you have to be with him. i mean thats alll i want. a few quality days with you and then you dont have to hang out with me for the rest of the summer. i love you and i really really don't want to loose you. please tell me if you feel the same.i am crying writing this and i just really hate to see that you don't miss me at all and you dont care if our friendship dies. you just dont care at all and its really killing me. but i love you more than you'll ever know. i'm not trying to make you feel bad by the way but i really do miss you alot.

i love you dollface.. or shall i say coolface =/

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